Latest Addiction/Frustration

So stressed with work yesterday so I decided to stop for a while and surf the net a bit. As usual, blog-hopping to check what other people (most of them strangers) think or write about. I don’t know, life interests me so much, and I want to know what people are up to. Anyways, I visited my blogspot only to realize that I haven’t posted anything for the week. Last entry was about MLR’s birthday pa. I kept on thinking..what do I write about..what do I write about. I was feeling blank at that time and my mind was empty space. I just started posting in Official Statement, early this year. Prior to that, my thoughts can be found in Trying to Bloom In Snow and Press Release. Well, Press Release is still alive for purposes of my drama in life. So anyways, I tried to visit Trying to Bloom in Snow and Press Release to remind myself of what I used to write about.

Sigh. I never really wrote about general interests pala before. I wrote about life and its complexities. Shett as in all the drama in my life, my rants and raves, lyrics and poetry that affect me… anjan sila lahat pinangangalandakan ko (in the most creative way I can ever). It was then I realized oh yeah, it’s true what they say, dami kong drama from before. But then, I had something to write about. I HAD A REASON. Now I miss writing so bad. As in.

I used to write and write especially in highschool. Every emotion felt, I translated to words. Writing was my outlet. I wrote the things I cannot say. Up to this very moment, I still have those notebooks with me containing the words I never had the guts or chance to say to certain people. Hindi kabaduyan na love letters na wai nasend ha! As in mga stuff like how disappointed I was with you; or I wanted to cut class today and hangout with you but….yan mga ganyan. Nyeta I miss writing. I wrote less when I entered law school. Because somehow in law school, I thought I lost the ability to feel. Hanggang blog nalang. Sigh.

I want to write again. I want to be able to translate something into words once more. And I have a reason.

The drama that is now.